Woke up at 5am. Nothing unusual there I wake up early almost every day. I laid there thinking or better yet trying to make myself believe it would be a great day. It should be, I wanted it to be and I honestly did try.
I wrote a whole post on my day and how it basically sucked but then I decided to delete it. See my boys tried they really really did. I got a card from my son and yes it was a card I made for my mom before she passed but he wrote what he felt inside. It truly meant the world to me when he thanked me for driving him everywhere for everything he wants to do. And every time I look at it I will think of her and of him with a smile.
We visited my Dad. It was a hard day for my Dad and my siblings. First Mother's Day without my Mom. A few tears were shed. Ok more than a few on my part.
We had a lovely dinner and yes I had to cook it but at least I ate dinner with my husband and my amazing son.
It wasn't a day of luxury for me. It was a normal day. Laundry to be done, homework to help with and time spent with the people that mean the most to me.
The only thing that would have made it better would have been putting my arms around my Mom and wishing her a very Happy Day. So instead I look out the patio doors into the night sky and find the star that is shining the brightest and throw a huge kiss because I know that's Mom and she is sending her love to us all.
LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER MOM