Inspiration

I set up this blog for a few different reasons, one of them was for inspiration about life. Not only was it to possibly inspire someone somewhere but also to be inspired by someone.

One person who has inspired me is a friend that I used to work with (in fact she was my boss at one time). I always felt I could talk to her and she would give me honesty and truth in any response.  I am no longer working there and have not for awhile now but still feel this connection with her. She recently started her own blog and I follow. I'm glad I do. I enjoy her entries and would like to share one with you today! Her last post was about geese and I have to say that it was about a lot more than a fine feathered bird.

Enjoy and check out Heather's blog and I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!

Acceptance and Intution

I was missing something and I didn't know what it was until a friend mentioned to me that she felt I didn't have ACCEPTANCE in my life. So I began to read a few articles about it. It struck a cord with me, my dear friend was right!

An article said that "acceptance means different things to different people and that you make the conscious decision to be at peace about an event or person that perhaps you previously would have been judgmental about, but you no longer have the desire to be that way." It's a choice.

The older we get the more we listen to our inner voice and trust it. Gut instinct. It took me a long time to realize I had ignored it but in the past year and half it has proven time and time again that my instinct is right on the money. I have learned what works for me and what doesn't. Acceptance means we make choices and need to accept those choices and move forward in life. Let the past be the past. Sometimes those choices break your heart and don't always feel right at first. However acceptance allows you to relinquish that nagging voice that encourages you to doubt yourself. Acceptance has a calming factor, it reminds you that you have made the choices that only you and you alone can make. Acceptance means recognizing and showing appreciation for our differences.  Respecting each person for their uniqueness is simply what we would like from them, so we must give it out first.

Another article stated that "when we can accept situations created by others that are beyond our control, especially when we do not agree with them, we no longer feel the need to have some kind of negative emotional reaction to it. This frees up that energy to be channeled elsewhere, into positive, fulfilling activities of the mind and the heart.  

After reading these articles acceptance = peace within. I am  not completely there, I don't think anyone is 100% there but I'm well on my way and thank my amazing husband, my wonderful son and all my friends that are always there for me and that I trust with my heart.

4 am

I hear the birds starting to wake up for the day, my amazing son talking in his sleep about kicking a soccer ball to his friend Dylan and it's 4 am and I'm still up. 


I tend to let things bother me and it's really a silly habit of mine. There are times I let things eat at me. I wish I was like the man sleeping next to me and just let it be what it is and able to snore away. I try, I really really do. I last blogged about struggling and wondering and felt at peace with things and was really trying to live the ideas I had soul searched, just being my true self, going with my gut and being patient. At times though it is so hard. 


I hate being lied to by people that I call friends, though interpretation of friends is different from person to person. For me if I call you a friend that means I am there for you through everything whenever you need me even if you don't think you do. I believe I'm a good friend. All I ask back is the same in return.


I know that isn't possible from all people and I should expect disappointment. I try to find the good in all and sometimes I struggle with that.


I have reconnected with some people in my past that had moved away or we have lost touch with and I'm so glad to have them back in my life. I've missed them.


One of them said in the great words of Po from Kung Fu Panda 2 (Thank you Loretta)


You've got to let go of that stuff from the past, because it just doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is what you choose to be now. 


That's words to live by and I truly hope I and everyone else can.

Struggling and wondering

It's been forever since I last blogged, I start and then put aside never finishing it. That's been the way for a few things in my life lately and this worries me.

Do you ever find yourself struggling more than normal? Lately I have been with many many things and wondering why? Why can't I seem to get a handle on it. I second guess myself all the time, oh heck I think I'm second guessing myself four or five times over and its in matters of all shapes and sizes.

After some soul searching I've come to realize and learnt a few things about myself and life.

1. JUST BE YOURSELF - I just need to be me. Me is all I can be and all that I should be. I felt I was changing who I was so that would fit into a certain mold and it wasn't me. I felt dishonest with myself. If people I considered friends don't like the real me then they aren't the friends I thought they were and that's ok because not everyone can be friends with everyone.

2. GO WITH YOUR GUT - it's usually right 100% of the time. There's been some incidents lately that I have once again questioned. Am I being told the truth. I hate being lied to and have to admit the stubborn side of me will always find out the truth. This has happened a few times and in the end I have realized I should have just gone with the first instinct I had because it was right.

3. PATIENCE - this one is hard for me. I have the patience of Job for somethings and then with others I can fly off the handle in a nanosecond. For me this is something that will take time and is a work in progress.

Life isn't easy and really if it was what would be the fun at that. The things that happen in the past are what make you the person you are today.

Being a Mom, Wife, Sister, Friend it's all hard to keep it in line and in check with the demands of everyday life that can get crazy at times. But if I remember the above 3 things I can get through the day with happiness and being true to myself and in all this teaching my son the right values in life. 

A journey

What's that saying Life is a Journey. Well my life has been one that I wouldn't trade the past as it's what made me who I am today.

I think back over the years and there are many people that influenced me in one way or another. There aren't many however that have known me for my entire life like two people. My BFF Diana and her mom Mrs. P.  Now Diana has been my BFF since day one.

We grew up on the same street, 2 houses between us and though we were in different school systems we spent most of our time together.  We skated together, we entered Brownies and Girl Guides together, we would bike to get a slurpee, and sometimes we even liked the same boy at the same time. Her parents would take me camping with them, my family (well mostly my brothers would tease her like a little sister). And that is what she is to me a sister. Her mom Mrs. P is my 2nd mom and always made me feel part of her family. Since the late 1980's Mrs. P has has fought one illness or another and there were times when doctors told the family to prepare themselves for the worst but she always fought back. According to the doctors she shouldn't have lived the life she did. But she fought each illness with zest and gumption until this past Wednesday where I truly believe that she decided enough was enough and waited for Diana to be with her and then went to meet Mr. P. I think he decided he needed dinner made or a shirt ironed! ;) But now after a long wait they are again together.

Mrs. P you will always be a huge part of my life and I treasure every moment. You taught me to give it your all and not give up. And best of all you gave me a best friend that means the world to me.

You will be deeply missed but will always have a place in our hearts.

We now return to your regular scheduled program

Despite the fact I can barely walk this evening 2011 is starting off great. It's time to put it all in order. Today was a day to start that. Time off in cold weather makes us a little lazy.  School went back today and my wonderful son got back to his regular programming. He needs structure and so do I. We both said it would be a great day and it turned out to be a fantastic day for us both. I got to shop today for some organization for our home (would have been even better if Jill could have joined me but she needed to be home with her son who was under the weather) and then Marcus came home happy and said he had a great day, played with his Lego (plus Mom bought him some more on her visit to the Lego store, as you can't pass up a sale) and he even let me control the remote for the TV!

Today was definitely a day of JOY and I cannot wait to see what tomorrow brings!

Think good thoughts. Speak good words. Take good actions. Three steps that will bring more to you than you can ever imagine.

1-1-11

It's a new year and a new start for everything in my life.

I have dedicated this blog to inspiration, love and joy some of the things I need and want in my life and the changes I want to make.

I hope you follow along.

Happy New Year and may 2011 be a fantastic year for you.